Just Eatin Bon-Bons

For Christmas, a dear friend gave me a tiny bucket filled with scripture. Sometimes when I have children at my ankles (and my neck, my hair…) all day this is just what I need. Tiny morsels of the Word that fill and satisfy like a full meal.  Like spiritual bon-bons for this stay-at-home mama. This bucket is on a dust covered shelf next to the rocker, sandwiched between a “snot sucker” as we call it, hand sanitizer (for after diaper changes) and a pile of journals filled with good intentions.  Honestly, as I look at it, the shelf annoys me. I say to myself, “How hard is it to dust this shelf…we haven’t used the snot-sucker in like three months why haven’t I put it away…the hand sanitizer would be better suited next to the changing table four rooms away.” Thankfully…I close my eyes to this desire for my definition of perfection and grab the bucket and dig in. I thank God for this perspective, to know that His Word tastes just as sweet with a little dust circling in the air. I may only have a few moments of quiet, I have to take advantage of this. There will be a time for cleaning my shelf…may it never come before I feast on the Word. Today these bites filled me with hope and strength. He is my delight!

Your words sustain me. They bring me great joy and are my heart’s delight. Jeremiah 15:16

When I said, “My foot is slipping” your love oh Lord supported me. When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul. Psalm 94:18-19

Yet, I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior. Habakkuk 3:18

I love the “Yet” it’s what I cling to today. My house is a mess YET…Bills pile up YET…Relationships struggle and people disappoint YET…Circumstances seem impossible, hopeless YET… The journey is hard and painful YET…I WILL REJOICE IN THE LORD, I WILL BE JOYFUL IN GOD MY SAVIOR.

This is beautiful. No matter the circumstance, trial or struggle God is worthy of praise and delight…rejoicing…joy is found in Him. It makes me sing Desert Song

I praise You and thank You God that You are taking my idea of the “right” way to seek You and meeting me HERE in this place. In this season, my time with you will not look like it has in the past but You are still present, still pursuing relationship and still pouring out love. Somehow, You make what seems like a mess, a beautiful song.

So from now on, if someone asks me if all I do is sit around and eat bon-bons all day, I will say YES!

Why?!

I have no desire to blog. I am only here because I am following the Lord and this is where He has led me. I have no earthly idea why. He is calling me to write and I just can’t shake this urge to put it all out there. To write and share…this is not the problem. It’s just that my sharing is normally in the form of talking. Connecting with friends, face to face or over the phone, and telling my story. The story God is writing on my life. I am hoping by blogging I will be able to share this beautiful story with more beautiful friends than I am able to by talking. Here’s the deal though…my Englush aint to good! So if that’s going to bother you, you should probably leave now :) I am going to write it like I would say it to you if we were talking face to face. That’s not always pretty or correct, but I pray it will be beautiful. I hope that readers of my story will be encouraged, But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin's deceitfulness Hebrews 3:13 lifted up and pointed to The One and Only, The Maker of heaven and earth, The God who satisfies completely and loves lavishly. My soul will be satisfied as with the richest of foods Psalm 63:5. See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! 1 John 3:1 So here I am, take it or leave it. I don’t promise a pretty picture, but I do promise to be real, to be honest and unashamed. Those who look to Him are radiant: their faces are never covered with shame. Psalm 34:5 To God be the Glory!!!